I am sitting
this very moment at my desk, watching the snow fall in my back yard. It is
slow, calming, and peaceful.
This past
November and December left me feeling tired and thinned. Instead of sprinting into January with a head
and heart filled with goals and ambitions, I sort of fumbled into it head over
heels, worn out and with a heart filled with lead and a head filled with
mush. I needed to rest. I needed to not
be busy with a schedule jammed packed with things to do. I needed to be lazy.
And so I have.
I spent
January mooning over Spike and laughing at his antics (Buffy watching). I spent January making new friends whose
schools and town halls I can vandalize (Simpson’s Tapped Out). I snuggled up on
the sofa at night with my love and debated over who had the worst wardrobe,
Wesley Crusher or Jake Sisko (Star Trek DS9 watching). I cheered when Sherlock
put on his cap. I read a book where I traveled with a dwarf (Watersmeet), perused
through my Johnny’s seed catalog, and fangirled on Pinterest. I went less places and I ignored the small
nagging voice that asked,
“Shouldn’t
you be sending out your picture book manuscript to publishers? Shouldn’t you be
editing your novel? Shouldn’t you be going to that meeting or volunteering for
that thing?”
“No,” I
answered. “No I should not. I need time to recharge my batteries, to rest, it
will all be there waiting for me the next day, the next week, the next month.”
I have
greatly enjoyed having a lazy January. I have enjoyed it so much that I think I
will slowly ease my way into February and see how it goes. I will remind myself
more that I don’t have to do everything all at once and that a firm no is better
than a half-hearted yes and thanks to Krista M.
I think I too will aspire this year to try to do less and take care of
and be kind to myself more.
I completely get this, and have been doing the same! After 8 years of crazy work hours ("bedtime" often at 5am), chronic health issues, plus new acute mystery health issues, I was...exhausted. I have since learned to SLOW DOWN. Maybe a little too much. But I needed it, and still need it. Take all the time you need. You'll know when you've had enough rest!
ReplyDeleteAlso, I've been on a Star Trek: TNG kick as of late. And was just introduced to Sherlock. I've got WAY too much stuff to watch. :)